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once upon...

once upon a time on my memory clock, there was a girl.

She really loves the world and find it is fascinating. She wanted to experience everything and she does everything.

However, as she grew older, she were becoming more afraid of the world.

Such negativity, she sees. Everyone lost in a race, a race that she wasn’t anticipating into. She hated competition, thus, always gave in. Or rather, it should be said that it wasn’t because she hated competition, it was because she is afraid of something else. She was afraid of losing, for all that she can remember, nobody ever recalled her.

She has became a rather disconnected from the rest. Unable to express her feeling, she was seen as a cocky person. Being a numb, she was left alone.

Alone, confined within four walls, consist of her own world. People thought she doesn’t need them. She can’t even understand herself, so how are they gonna?
Then, who do we turn to when we were alone, unwanted?
A clear cut answer for me…
Allah, is the only One for me..That never leave me, no matter how bad I am. Hence, here I am. Alhamdulillah Ya Ar-Rahman Ar-Rahim, for always loving me, no matter how bad I am and how far I am straying away from You. Yet, You are always near :)

Come clean

the truth is..i’m a pretender
pretending to be someone nice.when in fact, deep down within my heart, i knew that i wasn’t a nice person..
i’m tried of this kind of self of mine..
pretending to be humble. when i know that i am not…
pretend..pretend..and pretending..
such a pretentious person…
and you, my self..i despise this kind of self…
you should be ashamed and go back to the light
well, at least the person other people hate is not pretending

even though I've let go of you..just to let you know, you will always have a special place in my heart =)

Love is.. (and no,the answer is not 'Cinta' as in the movie k!!)

Love is..

Hrmm..I am wondering.how should I start with this word 'Love aka Cinta'?

Love is what our life is all about..Love is never deceiving..instead we are the one who deceives others...Love is never blind..instead, we are the one who is blind..

Blinded by our wants

Blinded by our wants, we screw the meaning of love...Love is something which is the purest thing in this world..But often, we contamine it with our lust, bad intention,etc...Love is never expecting for something..But often, we contamine it with our greed...Our whole life is based on love..

Here is the cronology:

1. Love for Allah
2. Love for prophet Muhammad
3. Love for mother
4. Love for father
5. Love for everyone else
6. Love for the environment
7. Love for ourselves

One might be wondering, why I place 'love for ourselves' at the last place? This is because when we put ourselves first, we tend to be greed. We tend to ignore someone else's situation, as we put ourselves first. Selfish! I am not saying that it is wrong to love and care for ourselves. Because I believed that everyone do love themselves. But what I am trying to say is that we should always be considerate. Treat people the way you want them to treat you. I really love Mahatma Gandhi's saying "An eye for an eye would only going to make the whole world blind". Implied idea? We should never encounter evil with evil, as it would make this whole world going into chaos...

So, getting back to the Q: Love is...???

My answer is: Love is Allah..

There is Allah everywhere.from every corner, every perspective I look at..The purest love is Allah :)

Aku mencari

Aku mencari..dan mencari..dan masi mencari..
bagaimana caranya??untuk ke hatimu?
kadang kala..aku berputus asa..
ingin melupakan kau..melupakan segalanya..
tapi kau akn selalu kembali ke hatiku..
dan aku terus mencari lagi la..jalan ke hatimu...
laaa..patut la tak jumpa jln ke hatimu..
rupa-rupanya..dlm perjalanan mencari jln itu, hati aku telah habis di tengah jalan..
terlalu memendam rasa, akibatnya?
hati aku pun telah hancur hampir 99.01%..
kini, aku tiada hati lagi..

Lagi..

Irin cuba tuk melupakan pujaan hatinya yg telah diminati sejak dia berada di form 3..dan kini, Irin telah pun memasuki Uni..part 1 BLS...pujaan hatinya..ialah seorang yg hot-stuff disekolahnya dahulu..pujaan hatinya..ialah seorang junior..umur mereka berbeza 2 tahun..agak pelik, kata kwn sekolahnya dahulu.."perempuan, kenalah cari lelaki yg lebih tua, bukn muda!"..itu la kata kwn2 time sekolah dulu..

ah!aku peduli apa.persetankan semua itu..age is just a number to me duh..

kini, Irin telah berada di Uni...dia dan pujaan hatinya tidak pernah bermesej..pujaan hatinya maybe tidak pernah sekalipun mengingati kewujudannya..dan disini, pd waktu ini, Irin kekal melakukan aktiviti men-stalking si pujaan hatinya..dan maybe, pujaan hati kini telah bersama yg lain..huh, apa yg peliknya??dia kan hot-stuff =_=

namun, bkn kehensem-an dirinya yg menjerat hati si Irin, tetapi budi pekerti si pujaan hati yg membuatkan Irin ttp menyukai dia sehingga hari ini..dan sehingga hari ini, Irin ttp menyimpan perasaan itu dalam di ruang yg paling terdalam di hatinya..biar tiada siapa pun yg tau ttg perasaan itu..biar dia seorang saja yg menahan sakitnya

* so i spend my whole life hiding my heart away~~